The word is the basis,
There is no feeling. There is no good or bad, there is sadness. There is a feeling of guilt as to why is this happening or why am I doing this or why is this happening to me.

On the basis of the last twenty four years of my life, on the basis of which I am now thirty six years old, and on the basis of which I have understood and evaluated my family a little bit from the point of view of the world/society, the words are that:

Composed,
Your father and mother and your two sisters do not love you, and for that reason neither do their children.

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now what next

Now what, now there will be a flood of all those things that were left in the last ten years. Now the eyes will open and one will realize what has happened. Where did all this time go? What all could have been done. Now there will be a rush, all the things will come out at once and one will not understand where to start and what to do, because there are shortcomings everywhere. If you take the family out of life and look at it, then whatever is not there in it, those are the shortcomings.

But don't panic, one happiness is of starting something right and the rest is sadness of everything coming to light, you will not understand whether to focus on happiness or other shortcomings. Still don't panic because you have an understanding which is better than before. You have spent as much time in difficulties as you have groomed yourself. You have to find your own ability and focus on that. Nothing is lost, only that is lost which was not of help to you, even if it is the whole family. And the advantage of spending so much time is that you will never feel sad about leaving your family in life. You will not waver on your decision again, because you have given ten years to the family and twenty years to the father, which is a big thing, a very long time. And such decisions prepare the background for doing something big in life.

Composed,
 You can't match them, you can't do anything better. You can only be separate from them, you are not a part of them, it took you a long time to understand this and the loss that you have suffered can never be compensated, now it can only be reduced by staying away and one day it can stop.

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