Year 1999 - Age 10 years
Year 2001 - Age 12 years
[Childhood]
Year 2003 – Age 14 years
[Games and Friends]
Year 2004 – Age 15 years
[Affinity]
Statue of Greatness (No. 1)
He didn't just lose his childhood, he lost something else too.
Affinity was probably also deliberately erased.
Nana had cheated me about money, Dada had tortured me in childhood.
Uncle, uncle and uncle also hurt father.
What was the need to tell the child, yet the father had told.
Be it your neighbor or your son-in-law, or all your brothers.
You are in greatest danger, it is important to keep you safe.
This is what father explained
Didn't let me meet everyone, kept me away since childhood
He did bad things to everyone and didn't care about anyone.
There may be one wrong one or two or a few more,
But how did you make everyone wrong?
The trust that the child expressed in his school teachers,
crushed that too
Whenever friends came to the shop, I sent them away too.
Trust-affinity-friendship-attachment, never allowed to feel anything
Everything was put into words without any emotions.
That child used to speak sweetly while laughing, now he has started becoming hoarse.
Now he has started locking himself in the house at night too.
Started with computer, became computer in 6 years
What kind of foundation did the father lay? What must have been his thoughts?
All these things are surprising,
I can't believe it
Many questions arise.
Said maternal grandparents, maternal grandparents,
And uncle and aunt, or aunt or aunt or uncle
Didn't anyone take care of the child?
Did no one speak?
Didn't anyone invite you to his house?
Didn't anyone say anything about that?
Father lived 10 villages away from his relatives and used to fight with everyone.
Everyone was wrong, he was right, that's what he told me
Why do those who are in my relationship live 10 villages away?
Did he come angry with everyone, or did everyone drive him away?
There is no one in this world who can explain to father
There is no one in this world whom father can call friend
I used to accept everyone, I used to make anyone my own.
Then he wanted to make her dance to the tunes, if she didn't dance he would humiliate her.
Didn't forget things for years, used to make anyone bow down with lies
The child was unaware of all this, his father was the greatest
He was the embodiment of greatness (c.1) , this is what the father explained
Everyone comes later, even mother was able to say something.
Mother also used to listen to good and bad, about her family and parents.
Mother also used to work in the shop for many years.
Sisters also used to get scolded a lot, the father said that the sisters were also forgiven.
He also used to conduct one hour session every two days on the evils of the people.
Everyone lived to avoid being scolded, they did whatever work was given to them.
Food was always good, there were other needs also, they were understood.
One may still wonder how all this could happen.
There are also weddings and festivals to meet and play.
Holi Diwali is taken out at the shop, not taken to the wedding.
He used to stay alone at the shop, when everyone would go somewhere together.
Father used to say, you all are better than them
Those who don't get food and don't have parents
It felt bad then, now it feels right
that only they were better
Those who don't get food and don't have parents
Everyone was very nice outside, the world considered me smart
I used to get scolded at home even for a day, said that I used to get leave in that.
The age of the child is 16 years, the story of 16 years is left
The ideology by which life is going on, 16 more years are left to go
year 2004-2005
Age 15-16 years [study]
Statue of Greatness (Cr. 2 and 3)
year 2004-2006
Age 15-17 years [home]
Statue of Greatness (No. 4)
I used to live by installments, father used to pay huge amount as interest.
I do everything for you, I couldn't sleep at night I used to say
Whenever he asked for toys or household items, he used to talk like this
Whenever he brought fruits, he used to tell interesting stories.
Always used to explain to them all the inflation while eating.
After hearing everything, everyone wanted to help.
They would refuse toys and would rarely order things.
It is not that the demands were big,
There was a shortage of even the necessary things.
Everyone would have done well in that too but,
father's claims were big in the world,
Having all the facilities at home,
It was difficult to fulfill them.
Ask for a minute, the mountain will collapse
If you are late by a minute, you will have to listen for half an hour.
Count all the sorrows of life, on every small pearl
So busy, so worried, doing so much
If you are late by 5 minutes, you will have to wait for half an hour.
After two hours go somewhere and sit down to talk.
Who is getting late for office, for whom everyone is scolded.
Stop to chat somewhere even before reaching office
If the topic is of fight, home or society,
Forgetting all the tiredness, interest and work, we spent two days here.
No time for family and relatives
No time for sisters' in-laws' house
there was no time to go to the hospital
but there is no shortage of time
call me to talk big
The things that father used to say by depriving everyone else
Used to explain the importance of time and tell the price of petrol.
Where would that time go when I was busy fighting for two days?
Neither family nor relatives, then whom to benefit?
Father used to burn petrol 100-100 kilometers
The child who always saw the face,
Same face, same feeling among relatives at home,
Line of worry on the forehead, sleep in the eyes
lack of or so much tension in talking
The behavior or face that we saw,
No one believes in his world,
That face, that expression changes so much,
Whenever or wherever he used to talk.
No time to walk 5 km, father used to count petrol also.
He always wasted his time in meaningless activities.
How did it happen without meaning?
Those things don't matter at home either.
Neither from the shop nor the customer,
Neither from family nor sister's house,
when there is no time
So the rest of the work was done without any meaning.
There is no time for sisters and daughters to go to their in-laws' house.
never took fruit fruit
The same person in his own mind meaningless
I used to spend time driving
After scolding mother for 5 minutes,
He used to narrate things to his maternal grandparents,
Within 5 minutes he would stay anywhere for half an hour
Would all the father's work have been completed then?
did all time stop then
What about all the expenses and that time?
Was interest also waived off ?
The mother did not take the children to visit their maternal grandparents even for a day.
There was no time even for a day in a year,
He himself used to come here every year for 10-10 days.
Before going to the wedding function,
Used to explain time and money.
Doesn't stay there even for an hour but,
used to sit for two hours on the way
While going somewhere in the car, getting scolded, the temper remained hot
Just by sitting there, the mood would change and become colourful.
Didn't we see the way he used to talk to them?
I don't know why mother never said anything?
Had father kept it so quiet?
Due to different behavior from others
Another question had arisen on that statue of greatness (number 4).
year 2004-2006
Age 15-17 years [shop]
Statue of Greatness (No. 5 and 6)
Six: It's been years at the shop, the child has started understanding something
Started doing the work better, even without explaining
I started telling some things from my side and some in my own way.
Some thoughts in the usual tasks, his mind started moving
After taking care of the child in the shop, the father used to do new work.
He used to invest money somewhere, join something somewhere,
Sometimes it used to go by the name of Panchayat Samaj.
Asks the child for opinion, gets irritated when told otherwise
If things worked out for him, if things didn't work out he would blame the child.
If the child speaks, understand it either by shouting or by avoiding it.
did not allow the matter to proceed further
Good and intelligent people used to come and go.
Someone praised the work, advised to teach.
Whoever saw the father talking to the child
Or advised to study, everyone's evil will continue
and his coming and going stopped
Father, in the field of work, everyone who moves forward
used to tease him and prove him wrong
Be it a complaint with the staff, or a fight with the customer
Be it a bank or office issue, the child has to listen.
Even after getting the work done by everyone, the work is never completed
Talking about customers, there were problems in understanding them too.
Customers are the ones who pay, why was there a different treatment?
Why was there a difference between a man or a woman paying equal amount?
A man counts the shortcomings of his customers and raises questions about everything.
On the contrary, the child took good money and took less time.
The father never took care of him, but the child started taking care of him well.
Good man paying customers, still used to fight
The work was increasing, then why did he send them away?
Meaning, something was beginning to happen, it neither allowed me to study nor do anything.
Doesn't let you take even a step out of the world you've created.
A third question had arisen on that statue of greatness (No. 5).
There might not be any problem even now, if the action seemed right,
Father would spend hours with some female customers, forgetting the rule of taking money.
No matter how important the task is, he removes everything.
Kept talking, reached their home and family
I don't understand so many things, how the timing of work was correct
Behavior would change, even actions could not be understood.
Father used to give up all his time and work for some female customers.
Had to go somewhere, and plans changed
Father used to forget all the work for some female customers.
The father took great pleasure in the Panchayat of everyone's house.
Whatever he would sit down to do once, he would spend months doing it.
If anyone in the house wants to talk there, wait for two minutes.
I was so upset
It has been six years since the child started sitting at the shop.
Understanding had also increased a bit, he started seeing and understanding things.
Father's behavior towards female customers
He was beginning to notice, the child felt uncomfortable
The way father handles female customers,
the child was not meant to be like that
The child has nothing to do with any habit of the father.
But the father tried to involve the child.
For a son or daughter, there is a behavior
Everything has a place, a place
Where are you standing, what is the atmosphere
what to say, what to say, what are the gestures
The father probably knows about all this.
wasn't even close
He calls the child once, somewhere in the office.
Father is found sitting at the table, in front of the woman sitting on a chair.
What was this behaviour? There are many questions.
Whatever action the father had to do, then why did he call the child?
If you had called for work, then why did you put yourself in that situation?
What do you understand by this action and all the things that were happening?
If we look at the child together, the understanding becomes clear.
The father's behavior does not seem right, he remains different in front of the child.
It seems that he wanted to involve the child also.
It didn't feel right to the child, he realized that he couldn't work anymore. to do with
On that statue of greatness (No. 6) , the fourth question was raised.
There was pressure on the child now, he even made him leave school.
Kept away from everyone, there is no one to whom one can tell one's problems.
And even mother herself used to say something at home.
Stress has entered my life,
The child was surrounded by questions,
Which is called depression ,
his work has started
The paths to study were closed from the beginning,
No one else comes to work,
Can't do shop work anymore,
Can't take help from anyone,
I never talked to my loved ones,
What could the child do even after talking?
Where son-in-law and brother are considered thieves
Now there is only one way left to die,
Tried and found ways too
Don't know how from where,
it was full of struggle
Even in such a situation,
his brain used to control him
take care of yourself alone
solves all problems
I had a lot of confidence in myself
Thought of doing something after studying
I have to die now, before committing suicide.
thought of giving a try
first stage finished
1999-2006 | In brackets of each title above is what he never got.
Year 2006-2007
Age 17-18 years
[Confidence and Courage]
-- in the past --
"...only he can take care of himself.
solves all problems
I had a lot of confidence in myself
Thought of doing something after studying
I have to die now, before committing suicide.
Thought of giving it a try..."
There is a search for what one can become after studying.
Now there is happiness, hope and hope in life
He is inspired by a news in the newspaper about his appointment.
"Technology student gets offer worth Rs 1 crore"
Whatever happens in this world, I can also do it.
Such is his courage and confidence.
Despite being completely ignorant, he tries everything possible
Takes confidence and struggle to new levels
If you want to do something after studying, then you have to become a great engineer.
Sometimes thought of becoming a scientist, but got interested in machines.
Tries to go to city, father doesn't send him
Wants to get good education but can't go to city
But apart from studying, the alternative is to die .
To somehow get admission in the city,
Now he talks to his brother ,
He also takes advice from his brother's teacher.
I have a lot of faith in my mind,
He also studied engineering from a shop.
tries to
When I will give weekly practicals,
I will come to the city for shop work
I can read myself, to prove that
prepares to take exam before admission
But without going to school, engineering is not possible.
Teacher-brother's advice, commerce is the only option
Father does not send the forms to be filled on time.
Fills the form in a hurry on the last day
Don't know the subjects, fills the form wrongly
Without classes or tuition, he studies on his own
Ignorant of a subject, where does that book come from?
Because of one subject, he is left behind
Where do you stop once you fail?
Crosses the Twelfth for the Second Time (2007)
He is sitting at the shop, his mind is somewhere else.
Even while living, he manages the shop well even in his thoughts.
Year 2008 - Age 19 years
[Conflict]
Statue of Greatness (Cr. 7 Last) humanity (c.1)
year 2009-2010
Age 20-21 years
[city-sports bike]
Humanity (Section 2 & 3 & 4) Relationship Hurt (Cr. 1 and 2)
Asks for time to study, wants to go to the city
Shows ability to read, reminds
I come first from class one
I have been sitting in the shop regularly since class five
In class VIII, in five subjects
with Special Ability (D)
I also get a rank in the district
subjects like commerce
I understand by reading it myself
It's been 8 years at the shop now
Dropped out of school for five years
I still want to read it
Rachit's father doesn't send him to study but,
I have to go to the city for shop work anyway
"Instead of going to and from the city,
Send me your work by bus, I will handle the city work there.
I am taking the computer and will continue working at the shop as well"
Designed like this, the work comes to the city
Some shops in the city last for a few months and some last for two years
-- City routine --
getting up at four or five in the morning
I reach my tuition by city bus after getting ready
Morning classes, then shop work
Then I have food and study in the afternoon class.
The work was done by going from place to place
fills out the form and submits it
Coming home in the evening while changing the city bus.
I would make a parcel, give it to the bus and take a new one
Then at night I work on the computer
And after studying I sleep for 2-4 hours
I had to get up early again in the morning
Gives every minute 's news on phone
You won't believe it, but during the day
Father's phone kept ringing for two to three hours
came among the new people but
Where is the time left to meet and talk?
I can only study a little in the city
In the first year of college,
I scored 48.66% by studying on my own
In the second and third years of college,
With just a few months of tuition,
Makes up 68.5% and 72.5% percentages
Gets marks like a gold medalist
On scoring 70% you get a gold medal that year
He would also come to the city for a few months in the first year
So maybe I would have brought a gold medal in college
He came to the city to study and also works with me
Does anyone bother the kids who study?
Yet, the father's role is huge in stopping studies
Sometimes, even on the day of the exam , he scolds me and sends me to the office
Still composed after college, prepares for further career
His father stops him too by making up baseless excuses
"There is summer vacation in June, there are no classes"
At this level of study, where are the summer holidays
The father reveals his state of mind by talking nonsense
He closes the class and calls me to the shop again
Sometimes a city, sometimes a shop, an uncertain atmosphere prevails
If he refuses and doesn't listen, he scolds him
"To whom should I tell my sorrow"
,
Another hour passes in such talks.
The mental struggle still goes on, every day
"I wasted my tuition money"
, he says such things
He doesn't let you speak, he says whatever comes to his mind
This is the first person I saw with his own children
behaves like this, and that is why
The first question arises on humanity (No. 2)
When the father himself behaves like this,
Then, the relationship gets hurt (No. 1)
Changing city buses takes a lot of time
To save time, father buys him a new bike
That too is an expensive sports bike ,
I am happy with my father's decision, this is the first time
A father helps a girl to get a job
Teaches him about office and city work
He takes her by car and even on a sports bike
Whatever happens, Rachit doesn't care about anyone
The girl's father and the family feel it is right
Whoever wants to do it, does it
With time, Rachit realises that the girl and her
The behaviour of the family members seems a bit strange
Rachit has to stay away but
Everyone's behavior is to the author,
Seems a bit self -doubting ,
Raises questions in the mind,
- Why is everyone showing so much interest all of a sudden?
- Why is the father telling everyone about Rachit's nature and about him?
- The father is helping the girl, so why is Rachit being brought into all this?
- Not everyone changes so much all of a sudden, what is motivating everyone?
- Not everyone can behave the way they are behaving now. Who is bringing in so much courage in everyone and why?
Rachit feels all this interferes with his personal life
He clearly tells us to keep everyone away from our home
But its effect is also less
It doesn't mean anything but it comes to mind
How a father raises his daughter
sends him on a sports bike with someone else
No one objects; on the contrary, everyone remains happy?
after a while it becomes apparent
It shakes Rachit from within
The father will make that girl the daughter-in-law of his house
The girl's family is shown like this
Rachit doesn't like this at all,
Rachit does not know the truth of this matter,
But, he thinks about both possibilities.
The first possibility is true
Now everyone's behavior is understandable
"will create many so learning work"
This is what everyone thinks, there is no objection
People with less money have better expectations
-- thoughts on the situation --
to some girl,
Who rides a sports bike?
About your son,
Who tells so many things?
"I like talking to girls less"
Which father would say such things about his son?
Do you do it with any girl?
Everyone felt something was wrong with Rachit,
I can't see it, don't understand it?
Rachit knows his father very well, that is why
He struggles so much to do different things
Even from those who are related as daughters
The father's behavior is full of complaints ,
This girl is not my daughter,
Nor does the behavior seem like that of daughters
With whom even daughters have complaints,
There is no other girl for him
How distant is a relationship?
-- Thoughts on the girl's family --
What happens to the girl's family?
Which father to his daughter,
with anyone,
Sends it on a sports bike?
Not just once or twice, it goes on for months
This is the limit or should I say you should be ashamed,
If a girl's father is like this,
Do you get influenced by anyone's words?
I don't know which greed eats away the intellect?
Or even the whole family,
Is it somehow subdued ?
-- Thoughts on a girl's thinking --
What are the girl's thoughts?
your father's age
with someone
Who spends so much time?
Who talks so much?
Who travels so much?
That too on a sports bike?
Not just once or twice, it goes on for months
-- Thoughts on father's thinking --
I am not educating my son,
Which Erie Gerry girl is he teaching to work?
My son, since the first grade
Showing off your abilities
Without giving him a chance to do anything,
Which Ari Gerry girl is he pursuing?
For the wife and kids,
never gave me a minute of time
Now for which Eerie Gerry girl,
Burning time and petrol?
He doesn't listen to his wife at all,
Daughters cannot even express their wishes at home,
An atmosphere of fear and scolding has been created in the house,
Which girl are you taking for a ride on the sports bike?
For sisters and daughters,
Time never manages,
And making the lives of strangers ?
Imagine if everything continued like this,
So where is all this heading ?
What did it feel, that everyone,
I don't see anything, don't understand it?
Everyone is quiet, if they are getting respect,
Is he taking unfair advantage of her like this?
The second possibility is that this is false
I guess this would be a lie
"The father will make that girl the daughter-in-law of his house"
This thing would never have happened
Everyone who has had dealings with Rachit,
This shows that there is such a thing,
But as soon as such a thing is denied,
All the questions in Rachit's mind arise again.
-- All questions --
everyone's behavior is to the author,
Seems a bit self -doubting ,
Raises questions in the mind,
- Why is everyone showing so much interest all of a sudden?
- Why is the father telling everyone about Rachit's nature and about him?
- The father is helping the girl, so why is Rachit being brought into all this?
- Not everyone changes so much all of a sudden, what is motivating everyone?
- Not everyone can behave the way they are behaving now. Who is bringing in so much courage in everyone and why?
Rachit feels all this is interference in his personal life
,
If this is not on anyone's mind,
So whatever your relationship was with your father,
Why does he start dominating Rachit?
By what right and by what relation,
Everyone's attention is on Rachit?
What greed, what conspiracy is behind all this?
Because even if you explicitly refuse,
No effect, everything goes on as usual
Whatever the possibility, the decision is made today
I have talked to him, now Rachit decides for himself
The day Rachit finds out, everything stops from that day onwards
He tells me at home, I am burning my sports bike,
I'm buying a new sports bike tomorrow morning,
If you see someone riding a new sports bike,
If someone comes and talks nonsense,
Then the new one will also burn, I am telling you now,
I am not asking for money, I have been working for ten years,
I am taking care of all the money myself.
After this day, everything is closed.
Nobody sits on a bike
No one dominates the created
What did the father think?
Will you bring a girl for yourself in the name of Rachit too?
The name will be Rachit's and he will make his wife his own?
Hearing all this, it feels horrible and disgusting.
But all the actions point to this
A person's identity is determined by his past behavior
Read from the beginning and understand everything together,
So it seems like a systematic plan
I endure, I suffer,
Still I keep quiet because I respect you
I take care of the relationship
That doesn’t mean that
I don't understand my rights and my dignity
Ever thought about this,
It will not be good if you raise your eyes,
Father's relationship with this thought,
It will end on its own,
if you ended the relationship
Then what's going to stop me?
Ultimately Rachit sells the bike,
The bike wasn't for him
The sports bike was named after
The father probably created it for himself by the name of Rachit,
He was going to bring a girl home too
When all the actions and atmosphere point in this direction
Then, another question arises on humanity (No. 3)
When the father himself goes this way, this far ahead
Then it has an effect like a blow to the relationship (No. 2)
But why did mother never say anything?
This is not the first time that such behavior and actions have happened.
What kept mom so quiet?
For the past eight years, everything has looked the same
The third question arises on humanity (No. 4)
Rachit is 21 years old, 11 years of story is still left
The struggle continues to grow, 11 more years are yet to pass
26-02-2023
year 2009-2010
Age 20-21 years
[Definition of family]
From Rachit's experience of seeing another family
-- From Rachit's experience of seeing another family --
A family watches and wonders
From his words, the father seems to be a friend of his sons
How well does a father talk to his daughters?
The father respects everyone in the family
He sits with everyone and watches TV too.
Father comes home to rest
does not bring everyday troubles home
Eats food properly without getting scolded
It will all seem like normal household things,
What is new in all this?
The new thing is that a 20 year old boy is doing all this,
seeing and feeling it for the first time
Father does not share his work troubles throughout the day
He neither shouts nor shows any favour
Well! So even without doing all this,
Can we move ahead in life?
Nobody is afraid of their father,
he does not run away in fear of its arrival
Everybody talks about the little things
The whole family sits together
Whatever things are happening, he sees them moving forward
How easily he sees everything happening
No, things are being twisted
No one is being let down
This doesn't happen at Rachit's house.
makes one wonder if a decision
Can it be taken all at once ?
Instead of scolding and getting angry at every small thing,
Can we laugh at every little thing?
I have to laugh secretly from my father,
But no one does that here?
Is there something to be gained by laughing?
Rachit thought that only one person would laugh,
You have to take happiness and give it to others
Or to laugh, you have to lose something
How do they behave with the people who come
And in my house, I make everyone work
Anyone who comes to my house, even for a day or two
They employ him in homes and shops like a labourer
Where there aren't problems,
But how good is the communication?
How peaceful is the atmosphere at home?
I want to stay here more,
The feeling that I am feeling,
I want to live it more
But where else to stay
I cry so much when I leave here
The job is to separate them,
What his home is like, an ideal is established
which comes in handy from time to time in Rachit's life
Apart from family, he also feels friendship
sees his father's creation beyond his understanding
Good friends are made, friendship is felt,
But it's time to fulfill and live friendship,
In the routine of the city, where does the father give
Relationship with teachers is also very special
Always inspired by the words of teachers
Every relationship feels a little bit
All this is enough to give him courage
26-02-2023
Year 2011 – Age 22 years
[Commits suicide after three years]
Humanity (Cr. 5) Hurt in Relationship (Sr. 3 and 4)
composed with work, studies
This also doesn't seem right to the father.
Father's behavior becomes intense, violent
An example of father's words:
"I made a mistake by letting you read
If somehow I could have stopped in 10th,
So today you would have been sitting at the shop.
By all means, Rachit is prevented
What is created is broken by words and behavior
The struggle is unbearable, Rachit loses now
once more,
Injury (number 3) has a deep impact on the relationship.
I can't work with my father,
I can't be like my father,
So that no one understands him like a father,
I am afraid to even talk to any girl
Those who are like daughters in a relationship,
He also had a complaint against his father
Father's eyes are uncomfortable with the behavior,
and in the wrong way,
I even felt an attempt to touch it
So many issues, so many activities,
He does it in and outside the shop,
At least he could have kept his loved ones safe?
What kind of a person have you got as a father?
If you understand it like a demon but,
The demon is also a family demon
The fourth question arises on humanity (No. 5)
Injury to the relationship (No. 4), it has an impact
My father has decided that he won't let me study
The only other option left is to die
But I have to die,
Not by writing everything like that, by holding people responsible
If you do this, your father will get more angry
will torture the whole family
And for that reason, it cannot be done either
I can't live for myself,
I can't die for my family
then take a new path
First Rachit prepares himself
All your documents , which are from 10th onwards
burns them
All your books , registers and studies
burns everything
All mark sheets, marks sheets and everything
burns after 10th
A child who studies is
There is only one work in which he is interested.
That's why it takes a long time to burn
When everything burns, an entire room is empty.
Now Rachit has no documents
So that he can tell that he has studied beyond 10th
At home he tells that,
Now he will give up his insistence on studying
Everything from tenth onwards has been burnt.
and will not say anything further
Will always sit at the shop, like this
Will fulfill both the wishes of father
Now another task for the younger ones,
Can't do much but
Tells at home that Rachit will work at the shop.
Everyone else will stay in the city and study there
It tells one more thing that,
even about his engagement or marriage
no one will do it for three years
It is inevitable to die,
As much as possible, he will advance his younger ones,
Will get his degree done from the city in three years,
Then their future life is in their hands,
When the degree is completed after three years,
then he will resort to suicide
Won't trap anyone else here
That's why no one will get engaged or married
Just for a moment or an hour,
All this is not limited
For the next three years,
have prepared themselves
Alone in the village, sends everyone to the city
Shops all day long, even cooks food himself
To study or get married?
I live by putting all my dreams on hold
He stays in this situation for a month
I used to listen to songs a lot on the computer.
used to watch science fiction movies
now everything stops
No sorrow can be forgotten with the tune of songs.
One has to get lost in imagination after watching a movie.
We have to die but that too is not in vain.
He had suffered a lot of pain,
Had to protect my loved ones,
Therefore it was necessary to stop,
It should not happen that after Rachit's departure
And oppression will increase on everyone,
Everyone should calm down a bit.
just had to live till then
-- thoughts on the situation --
When everything has to end,
Inability to tolerate pain or discomfort,
Its main and main reason is
And,
Everything is over with this thought,
Ready to spend three more years,
It's a different level of struggle
It was not three years, it was just a month
How many thoughts come to mind in a single moment?
How did Rachit handle all those thoughts?
second stage finished
2006-201110-03-2023
year 2011-12
[Company Secretary-Executive]
-- in the past --
"Everything is over, with this thought,
Ready to take three more years,
This is a different level of struggle
It wasn't three years, it was just one month.
How many thoughts come to mind even in a moment?
How did Rachit handle all those thoughts?”
Rachit does not get tired,
The father cannot live for more than a month,
Who knows what frightens the father, or perhaps
Whatever we were getting from the village, it all stops?
This is what we can understand from our father's habits and past
Because Rachit never allows anyone to come to the village
Seeing Rachit working continuously , he gets scared?
When all the dreams are over, the mind doesn't wander anywhere.
If you are still alive, you become a machine.
To handle the sad mind, you remain busy in work.
By working continuously , you get better results.
It does not seem from the past that he thinks about the welfare of the creator,
But now the father wants to educate Rachit again
Where does Rachit believe like this,
"I am working and earning money,
No one needs to come,
And you will never fall short of money,
If I go to study this time,
So I don't take work with me,
the city wants to go far away"
He is not sent far away, he goes to a nearby city
With some promises, this deal is confirmed
You will get two years to study, and then you will earn this much,
That father will never have to work again
Bringing new hope again, the city comes
Within a few days of coming here, morale increases
He gets the reward for his hard work and struggle
An exam was taken and its result was out
At once, he
CS Executive Exam (2011)
crosses over the
In a single attempt (First Attempt),
passes all papers
Further studies are not available in the city for all subjects
Still, he studies as much as he can on his own.
I just have to study, I stop going anywhere
Books and teachers are everything
Online coaching is still far away,
There is no WhatsApp or a touchscreen phone.
There is no channel on Youtube, it is being created now
Nor is the internet that fast or cheap.
This year would have gone better the way it was going
Waste no time wandering, have only one goal
He does not pay attention to what his father says and remains focused on his studies
At this age, everybody laughs and has fun,
I make friends, go to weddings, study,
There is only one truth for the created,
"Let me get out of all this for once
I will live my childhood again
I will marry a good girl
I will fulfill all my dreams in life"
With the blessings of teachers, CS Executive Exam,
Passed in one go, now the target is the last exam,
CS Professional is to be passed in first attempt
By passing quickly, Company Secretary has to become
10-03-2023
year 2012-13
[Company Secretary-Professional]
22-03-2023
year 2013
[The dignity of the word father]
Humanity (s. no. 6 and 7 last) | Hurt in relationship (s. no. 5 and 6 last)
-- In the past --
"He comes home after giving the exam,
marriage in the same month and then the next month,
Main exam result is declared
CS Professional Exam (2012)
It crosses over in one go ...
I passed the main exam with flying colours,
Now it's just training, then doing my job...
wants to join somewhere as soon as possible
Now it is decided to appoint him as the company secretary ."
I'm happy that everything turned out alright
The struggle of six-seven years is over
As soon as you complete the training, you will become a CS
Everything will be fine, he will earn a lot of money
But the father has some other plans
Stops all money and expenditure completely
The father flatly refuses to allow him to undergo training
The father says,
"Stop studying,
It happened as much as it should have
there is no cost for both
You won't get a single penny,
You will have to earn and eat on your own"
But the studies are done ,
I just want to become a CS by doing training,
Rachit explains and persuades his father,
It is certain that you will become a company secretary ,
What a nice post it would be, it explains,
The father has clearly refused,
Where does the father have to listen to anything
A teacher calls and his words reveal
Rachit's father doesn't like that he passed CS .
"The teacher congratulates, the father does not express happiness
and changes the point to "
When You Can't Stop Nobody (1999–2011)
then adopt a new strategy
Once in Faith (2012)
Strike Again (2013)
This is probably what the father feels like.
With full confidence in the author,
delivers four hits at once
"study-eat/stay-accuse-bad-touch"
, studies --
For the last twelve years , he has been earning at the shop
And now, a year into my training,
Father will not even pay for food and accommodation
Rachit's earnings will also be many times more (1999-2011)
As much as Rachit will need in a year
On completion of training one becomes a CS
How much is the father earning from the shop
earns more than that
-- Food/Accommodation --
He was also ready for marriage, he would have waited for a year but
He will bear the expenses of both, the father himself says so
It's only been a month since the wedding and everyone refuses
"A father says, I will keep my daughters as they are
As long as Rachit reads it, I will bear all the expenses"
quoteOyear 2012-13 [Company Secretary-Professional]"
-- Blame --
At this time, the father calls the shop for help
"ruined the whole year's work"
accuses
There was a work of filling forms, for which Rachit was called for help for a few days. Rachit's work was only to fill the forms, he was not there the whole year, father always used to count and get the forms submitted. Even on the last date, father was getting the forms submitted the whole day, but in the evening he fights with Rachit that Rachit did not fill two forms due to which father's whole year got spoiled. Why doesn't father say this the whole day? And why after it was evening on the last date? If this was necessary, then why would father fill the forms himself? He always does the calculations, then why blame Rachit for leaving two forms behind?
Who does that to their kids?
What is the father's motive behind all this?
Injury to relationship (No.5) Father, puts it very deep
The fifth question also arises on humanity (No. 6)
-- Help --
The father does not think about Rachit's welfare,
It seems so clear
Everything seems like a well planned plan
Who should Rachit seek help from? How lonely it is
From whom should Rachit take help? From relatives and family?
Father keeps all relatives and family away from him since childhood
"Sun 2004 - Age 15 years [Affection]"
Everyone knows each other, but what is in our mind
No one can do it from both sides.
-- Decision 1 New Job --
It doesn't take him time to make a decision
will not be able to become a company secretary
Now I have to do some work myself
I have my own dreams about life and
You will have to take care of your wife alone
I want to live life, I want to travel the whole world
He manages with the wedding expenses for two to four months
Some money is in Rachana's (wife) bank
He gets a new computer from him
He starts a new job on his own,
And in such a short time,
starts making money
But he never goes to the shop.
Newly married, traveling and
Not everybody gets to come here,
Because the work is new,
he has to do it well
He remains scared after taking responsibility
And one has to go against one's father too
Ask Rachit's relatives, against his father
What does even one step look like
To Rachit,
Qualified for good post (CS), now need training
There is a new marriage, there is a lot of money in the house, there is a need to live well and be happy.
What happens is that,
Rachit has to start earning money to eat,
Why doesn't Rachit go to the shop?
Because the way I lived till today
he feels better dying than that
(1999-2011)
It's only been two months since I got married and completed my studies.
How many dreams will there be about life,
And what becomes of all this?
Who is responsible for all this?
Is this not enough for the father?
Still, where does the father stop now?
Rachit is living at home
busy in his new work
I have stopped taking money from my father
no complaints to anyone
forgets everything that happened
stays happy, works hard
some time out
where does father stay now
The creation is not broken by the first three blows,
"study-eat/stay-accuse-bad-touch"
Father gets ready to strike the fourth blow
Fourth attack is on Rachna (wife)
Father's touch upon salutation,
say more
" You can hug like a daughter "
Rachna feels uncomfortable
Tells Rachit that it feels wrong
How did she become like a daughter?
As soon as my father got married, he stopped eating and drinking.
Husband's (Rachit) good position (CS) was also taken away
Everything was right in life,
It would have been a better start, I stopped all that
My husband (Rachit) had progressed so much in life,
brought it to zero and left it
And they say you are like a daughter,
Or maybe the father would keep his daughter like this too
That's why he must have felt it was right to say so
And the society in which it is created,
Who hugs the daughter-in-law in that?
There is courage in creation and creation,
never let the father move forward
We have to see that the same society, creation and
How much strength does it give to courage
Or else it shows them the fear of society
Let's see how that same society identifies itself
Rachna feels uncomfortable
Tells Rachit that it feels wrong
It doesn't take time for Rachit to understand
Rachit knows his father's behavior towards women.
Due to such actions, the father himself,
He deals the final blow to the relationship (No. 6, last)
Questions on humanity have been raised many times, now father
goes beyond the definition of humanity (last no. 7)
What does the father want, after all?
A question arises here
What duty does this person fulfill as a 'father'?
third stage finished
2011-201322-03-2023
year 2013
[Decisions of Rachit]
Opportunity for improvement (s. no. 1 and 2)
Once again so many problems in life because of father, even if he dies there are two now, why should he die. This is not the first time that a situation of death is arising because of father, father is not stopping at all, father is a monster.
Still Rachit gathers courage and tries to think of something to stay away from all this.
Big decisions have already been made
"The kid didn't find it right, he understood it
(2004-06)
No longer working with "" if you ended the relationship
(2009-10)
So what's gonna stop me then? "
"Everything is over with this thought,
(2011)
Ready to spend three more years,
This is a different level of conflict"
1 - Some time ago, my father had stopped giving me money, so I had taken the decision to work on my own.
And
2 - Tells Rachana to stop saluting.
3 – Always asks to stay away and not talk.
4 - Now he decides to earn more before expanding his family.
5 - There are some important works left to be done at home, hence he feels it is right not to tell anyone about the inappropriate touching for now, not even Rachna's parents.
The bowing ceases forever,
From now on it is not necessary to talk or greet,
Most importantly, stay away and feel safe
And nothing like this ever happens again
≈3
He tells at home,
Rachana will not talk to her father anymore,
Like in the old days, she will not talk to her father-in-law
It is said that a hint is enough for an intelligent person
This is the first chance for the father to reform (cl. 1)
≈4
The future is uncertain and scary too
If I were alone, I would have died, but
Now even if there is a creation, this will not happen
and until you make good money
Until then the family will not move forward
I will never be deceived by my father again
≈5
There is some big function going to happen at home.
Until then, I'll keep this to myself
He will not talk to Rachana even at her parental home now
This will be the father's second chance to reform (cl.2)
It is important to pay attention to this time also.
Right now in the year 2013, no one here has a touch-screen phone, no Whatsapp, no Youtube, cheap internet hasn't even arrived yet. In today's time, getting information or talking to someone mostly happens in person.
22-03-2023, 31-07-2023
Year 2014-2020
[Conversation with father again and again, and finally the relationship ends]
-- In the past --
Decisions of Rachit
1 - Some time ago, my father had stopped giving me money, so I had taken the decision to work on my own.
2 - Tells Rachana to stop saluting.
3 – Always asks to stay away and not talk.
4 - Now he decides to earn more before expanding his family.
5 - There are some important works left to be done at home, hence he feels it is right not to tell anyone about the inappropriate touching for now, not even Rachna's parents.
This is the last chance for the father to stop and not trouble him anymore, or if the father still does not stop troubling him then maybe Rachit will break down and lose hope in life.
But the father does not stop troubling him.
With all these decisions the creator is able to keep the creation away forever, keep it safe,
But whatever decisions Rachit takes, his father misuses them and keeps troubling Rachit and Rachna.
1 - Some time back father had stopped giving me money, so I had already taken the decision of working on my own. He stopped giving me money but I was living at home, so it is natural that the expenses of food, living, electricity bill were being met from the home, but gradually he stopped all that too, clearly refused to bring my own food items, father would not bring them, and the electricity bill is high so father will not pay that either.
2 and 3 - Stopping greetings was the right step, perhaps there would have been improvement with time if the father had understood and learnt something from it, but the father reaches in-laws' house with a complaint, says " the daughter-in-law does not greet me, what kind of values have they given me "
, " the daughter-in-law does not like her mother-in-law and father-in-law, when they come the daughter-in-law goes to the kitchen or the room."
Rachna and Rachit are scolded and explained for greeting, if they do not agree the in-laws get angry, its impact remains for many years, keeping quiet for the family (for decision 5), proves very costly. "It is said that boys get respect only in their in-laws' house, the father snatches that too from Rachit."
4 - The decision to take the family forward unless he will earn, this proves to be very correct with time, but the complaints of the father "He is not taking the family forward"
"He is not even greeting"
"He even left the shop work"
Such complaints of the newly married couple, now the father spreads them in the entire family and in-laws. If there are complaints then questions arise, now there is even more pressure from the in-laws, both start becoming bad in the eyes of everyone, even if they want to tell something to someone, it does not seem right to tell now, both (Rachna and Rachit) just keep tolerating it. And till now they have not met anyone so openly in life that they could talk about such things, who knows they might take the father's side and the problems increase further.
5 - There are some big works pending at home, so he feels it is right not to tell anyone about the inappropriate touching for now. Not even Rachna's parents. They try with this right thought in mind, Rachit and Rachna, everyone at home knows it. Big work gets done at home, family members get ready, doing little by little more and passing the year after year. Thinking the same every year, eight to ten years go by doing this. They remain quiet, tolerate, stayed for their own people, find themselves standing away from their own people.
2014 - Talking to Father 01
All this happens in just one year. In the first year of marriage, where the first year is considered the best year in marriage, a little free from responsibilities, Rachit faces so many struggles, complications and problems because of his father. Even after all this, Rachna stays with him, what more can one want from a girl. I wish the family would have understood this someday and Rachna got the help and respect she has earned.
It is not possible to fight and tolerate like this now, I cannot live anymore. Now I have to die but I am also very angry, how to teach a lesson to my father, how can my father do this . He raises his voice for the first time, he has to die, so he should say everything because it is not possible that anything will happen, but now how will he be afraid of his father, then what will the father trouble him now, if he is not alive, Rachit threatens him that his father did wrong to Rachit his entire life, he will have to rectify all this and stop troubling him from now onwards or else he will do anything now .
How to make up for the past, Rachit says that his father did not let him study, everyone spends money on their children for education, on the contrary Rachit has spent so many years earning money at the shop. Now he will have to pay Rachit for studying for five years, that too all at once because he cannot trust his father. Rachit will not study now but his work is new and till he starts earning, he will use the money for household expenses and even if he does not give, there is no pressure, now Rachit will do what he feels is right. After this conversation, it is agreed that,
- Father will not trouble Rachit any more.
- And the father will give ten lakh rupees to Rachit, because this much money is spent in four-five years of study. As per Rachit's calculations, this is the expense for two people to live in a city for four-five years (fifteen-twenty thousand rupees per month). And Rachit has earned more than this in twelve years (, if we look at the father's wealth, this is not even three-four percent of that time). Rachit will not study now because the studies are over, but now he cannot go for the remaining CS training again. Because it has been two years since he left it and he is still doing his new job. Now if he stops working and starts training, it means that earning a little bit will stop from today itself and what if the training is not completed due to some reason? The father does not trust it. And now I cannot leave Rachna at home, I do not feel safe, I have to stay nearby and do my work, it will take time to earn money for that, so until then Rachit will use that money for the household expenses of two people, for the next four to five years, and that was for everyone, whoever lives in the house, comes and goes, now Rachit pays for all the household expenses from that same money.
Rachit had taken money from his father, but after 18 months of marriage, it was difficult to even afford food.
2014-2018 Talking to Father 01 - Troubles after that
If his father wanted, he could have reformed himself, but he is still the same. But how can his father trouble Rachit now? His studies are over, Rachit has his own work, he is keeping Rachna away, no matter how many complaints his father made to his in-laws, he is not taking the family forward, and what's more, he now has enough money to feed himself for four or five years.
But now all that's left for the father to snatch
- The peace of every day,
- The father's house in which Rachit lives,
- Rachit's family and all relatives who can be turned against Rachit,
Father's habits do not change at all, he is still instigating everyone against Rachit,
- Sometimes he calls someone home to make Rachit understand,
- Sometimes he questions the work of Rachit,
- Sometimes he says that Rachit will sink his father's entire wealth in debt,
- Sometimes he pressurizes Rachit to ask his maternal grandfather for the details of the property because his father doesn't think it is right. This sounds absurd but his father keeps fighting over this for many years.
- Once the father wanted to sell his own house to Rachit, at a cheaper rate because Rachit is his son, and on installments because he trusted Rachit.
- Sometimes he threatens Rachit that when he will have children, he will turn them against him. These are strange things. Who says this to his son but this father is like this. The next thing is even worse than this.
- The father puts pressure on Rachit through someone to expand the family, in a very cheap manner. That person first becomes a friend and then starts threatening that if you do not expand the family then I will never let you do this, because his work is related to the children's hospital, so he says that if you do not listen to me then there will be a lot of problems for you, I have the word everywhere, you will not be able to do anything later. "If you don't listen to me
You won't be able to do this ever again
I walk all over the city,
I have access to every hospital,
If you mess with me you won't be able to escape
Listen to me or else you will never be able to have a child quotes
Rachit doesn't listen to her but he is still worried and after a few years he has a miscarriage. And the family's attitude towards miscarriage is not good, so did he and his father really do this together?
- And the father himself had said to Rachit in anger once that you are not having children, do it then I will separate your children from you...
Same thing happens everyday in the house, that is why Rachit leaves his house and shifts to a rented house, and even there his father does not stop troubling him.
-- New job and life --
How is it in the midst of all this (2013-2016)
Life begins from zero,
He focuses on his new job,
The work is new, it takes some time,
He earns a little and invests it in his work.
Brings in new computers, moves forward
He spends the little money he earns on travelling,
Traveling is possible only after three years of marriage,
Because firstly you don't have any money of your own and,
He keeps his father's money only for household expenses
He tries his best to live a happy life
This year, have a good time with friends
Because of the actions of his father four years ago,
"Sun 2009-2010 Age 20-21 Years [city-sports bike]"
I sold the sports bike, now it's back for me,
Buys second sports bike on loan
He is happy at home with his sister and nephews
Brings some old computers for gaming
Whenever the nephew comes, he gives full time to me
Leaving everything behind, he plays games with them
Doesn't even let anyone know about the condition of the house
In the coming few years,
progresses well at work
to expand the family further,
prepares for responsibility
starts earning money,
starts giving it back to father |
- Rachit starts paying the instalments to his father at one point, and is also living separately on rent. At the same time, during his first pregnancy, he has to look after the household work and is unable to pay the instalments, on which his father behaves very badly as he is, "When you started the instalments, did you say that there would be a stop for two months in between?"
The father knows that Rachit is not working for two months, he is single-handedly taking care of Rachna, he is bearing the hospital expenses, household expenses and rent himself, but the father is just asking for his instalments, Rachit does not have the money, but again, he sells his other sports bike and pays the instalments to his father.
2018 Talk to Father 02
In 2014, he talks to his father for the first time and tells him that he will not bother him in future, but this continues till 2018 as well. Rachit again clearly tells his father to either stop bothering him or he will break all ties with him. After taking the money in 2014, till now Rachit has already paid back Rs. 4 lakhs to his father in the form of instalments and interest. Based on the way he has troubled his father in the last four years, Rachit asks his father whether he wants the money or the son. If he wants the money, he will pay all the instalments, the instalments are already going on. If he wants the son, there is still time, he will have to stop bothering him and he has some debts other than his father, that too will have to be paid by his father. Because his father did not let him live in that house, neither did he let him work properly, nor earn money, and is distancing the entire family, along with that he keeps complaining to relatives and in-laws everywhere, there is no peace anywhere and no emotional support during pregnancy and miscarriage. He is only interested in money and so can only talk about money. And if the father doesn't do this in future, then Rachit has no relation with him and neither will Rachit have any duty towards him. Rachit will give away all the money and will never take anything from his father's property in his life. The father agrees and gives him another 4 lakh rupees, with which Rachit pays off all his debt.
2020 Relationship with father ends
But even after two years in 2020, the father has not stopped harassing Rachit, Rachit ends his relationship with his father. Rachit will never take his father's property. And in 2021, Rachit had a car bought by his father, he sold it and gave 2 lakh (all) rupees to his father.
31-07-2023, 25-08-2024
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In a good way…. starting a new life is the best choice for Rachit 👍
Sabhi ko apni aawaj high rakhni chahiye anytime
Kabhi bhi kisi ka soch kar nhi darna chahiye, jese log kya bolenge etc.
Ese karne se log samaj jaenge ki ye insan kisi se bhi nhi darta is ko dabae nhi aur bekar harkate bhi na kare nhi me ijjat bani hui kharab ho jaegi.
Wese ese logo ki to ijjat kharab hokar hi rahegi
Jo apne family ki ijjat nhi karta to woo insan jine ke like nhi he ese insan ko jail aur bad me fasi honi chahiye.
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